I’m living such a bittersweet life. It’s strange to see how something can be really really good, but at the same time it can be pretty bad. I feel as if I’m avoiding reality and working around it, but in the long run it seems like it may be worth it. I feel like I’m making the right decisions in trying to make myself happy because in the end I always achieve that happiness. It’s scary now to not know what’s going to happen in the upcoming future. I have no reassurance that everything is going to be okay and that’s the part that’s scaring me the most. I can only hope that everything will work out. I feel as if I’ve learned a lot this past year, so many shocking things have happened that when something random happens now I don’t think twice about it, instead I take it in and work with it. A huge lesson I’ve learned is that things don’t always work out and sometimes things are NOT going to go according to plan. Sometimes it’s a harsh realization knowing that your plans will be ruined. I can’t help but get nervous thinking about what will happen, knowing that my future is up in the air is the scariest feeling of all. My current life has been so enjoyable, but when I take that step back from what’s happening and look into my life as a whole I get scared that there’s no path right now. I can veer into any direction and it’s made me realize that there’s more options in the world. I don’t know why everyone chooses the same options in life, society seems so conformed, and that’s the reason I want to be different.